just a bit more

Apparently the last post was too long as it ran out of memory. So here is part 2. Read the birth post first and then come back to this one :)
We arrived home at about 4 and slept perfectly. I smiled the next morning as the children came home and I heard Sariah yelling "where's the baby? I want to see the baby!".
all in all it was a perfect birth and I continue to try to convince myself that it would not have been better had we stayed at home. That it was perfect for all that it was. I realize that so many other woman have so many other issues and that it is probably petty for me to be upset about this one.
Still didn't stop me from crying as I came home and saw all the supplies sitting out in anticipation. Or stop me from crying three days later as we deflated a birth pool that hadn't been used....
If I don't think about it too much I am usually ok. But I still feel gyped somehow, as if I want to go back and have a do over.
Guess that's how it goes though.