Never before do I remember a song that has touched me as this one does. A song that directly reflects what I am going through and what I am thinking as though it was written for me and not for anyone else.
I know my feelings are not unique, but it is comforting to have them put in words that solidifies that what I am feeling is real.
I can't find more than this soundbite anywhere, but here is a bit, and here are the lyrics.
http://www.ldsaudio.com/samples/music_files/mp3.aspx?mp3=4695.mp3
In her heart she holds the dreams,
That she's carried since the day she turned thirteen.
Of all that she would be when she was grown,
Of all that she would do when she was finally on her own.
She dreams she flies,
She's still waiting for the chance to try...
But in the meantime she's a mother and a daughter and a wife.
Doing all she can to stay above the daily grind.
And she wonders when she'll ever have more meaning in her life,
She doesn't know she's being molded and refined,
In the meantime.
Someday she'll go back to school.
When the car pools and the soccer games are through.
Cause deep inside she's still the girl,
Whoe's always felt the fight to make a difference in the world.
She dreams she'll soar,
When she finally has the time to do more...
But in the meantime she's a sister and a teacher and a friend.
Hours turn into days, that turn to years that never end.
And she wonders when she'll ever really find herself again,
She's becoming one on whom God can depend,
In the meantime.
Heaven feels the joy of every victory in her life,
and heaven hears her heart before she cries.
Somewhere in the middle of the triumphs and the trials,
She's becoming sanctified.
In the meantime she's an answer and a blessing and a gift,
to every empty, aching heart that only she can lift.
Still she wonders if she'll ever get to see where heaven is,
If she could only see the mansion waiting there.
If she could only feel how much her father cares.
She would know she's being perfectly prepared,
In the meantime.
Jenny Jordan Frogley
I was speaking with a dear friend last night about all the inner thoughts of a mother and wife who is trying to do her best and she mentioned that she had heard a speaker recently who spoke on "Why we do, what we do". For me this song is a strong reminder of just that, why I do what I do.
In my meantime it is comforting to rely on the knowledge that I am becoming more as he intended me to be. I am being molded, refined and sanctified. All the boring aspects of life day in and day out are teaching me...
I was also reminded again during this conversation of the knowledge that when my responsiblities wear on me, when I feel hopeless, overwhelmed or not equal to the task of raising his choice children, all I need to do is remember that he has already deemed me equal to the task; he has deemed me, enough.....
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Seattle Rock-N-Roll Marathon
What does someone do when they want to be a part of a marathon but not necessarily run in it? they volunteer!!
Saturday morning found me up at 2:30 am in order to meet friends and be at the starting line of the marathon at 4:00.
We were stationed at table "LA-LI". Each table had a UPS truck and driver assigned to work with them and I must say that we had the best driver ever!!!
All the runners were given gear bags in which they placed their belongings that they were not running with and labeled it with their runner number. It was then our job to ensure that it was properly labeled and place and organize it in the trunk in such a manner that it could later be retrieved efficiently at the finish line .
Last I heard there were 20,000 -25,000 runners which made for a heck of a lot of gear bags!!!!
It was a great experience and there were truly runners of every kind, age, and body shape. It was interesting to see. Next year I really want to run/walk in it. There is also a 1/2 marathon. So, if anyone wants to go with me........
there were 36 different Corrals or heats. The first heat was released at 7:00 and the last heat wasn't released until about 8:40 . This is one of the heats slowly moving towards the start line.
Our busy week
Yes, I know, everyone is busy lately and our family has not been the exception.
Just wanted to document, lest I forget.... or maybe I should say for when I forget as we all know that it will happen.
Monday
We have not been to the Pacific Science Center in ages, so I figured it was time we go. They have a new exhibit called "Animal Grossology" that we have been waiting to see.
Sariah likewise has moved on from wanting to stay just in the kiddie area and has become aware of all the other things there are to do. For this Isaac is grateful. He now has a new comrade as Michael declared independence starting last trip ,which left a distraught Isaac all alone.
Seri has declared boredom with the place in typical teenage fashion. However, for this I am grateful as she now stays in the kiddie area and plays with the babies while I check in on the other two.
It just makes me realize how drastic the changes are. It was one thing to be a mother of younger children, quite another to be able to check each box in those forms that ask you which age children you have. Now, their interests and personalities and maturity levels have them all going in different directions and I am trying to manage observation duties of them all. It's a work in progress.
A few minutes after the last picture was taken Tristan leaned all the way in to get that toy that was just out of reach. As natural law dictates, he became top heavy and fell face first into the water table. Truly priceless. You know your a mother of five when everyone around you is terrified and you are laughing so hard you are barely able to assist in saving him.
Tuesday
Seri was dropped off for camp in the morning. In the afternoon we went to a picnic sponsored by a group I am thinking about being involved in, M.O.P.S. The kids had a great time playing at the park and afterwards we went to the mall and watched a local Kids music band called "Recess Monkey". the children had seen the group at Auburn days also. Since most of the songs were replays and the babies were getting cranky we left early.
Back to the discussion about having children at different ages. This was clearly a great activity for Isaac however Mike was a bored ten year old and Sariah was still a little too young too appreciate the experience.
Wednesday
In the middle of being visited by my visiting teachers I get this great idea to go to the Auburn water park. As soon as they leave, we are off. On the way, I decide it would be nice to invite some other families along, as I have been accused of not sharing the fun activities we do with others. So, as I am driving the calls go like this. "Hi! we are on our way to the water park now if you would like to join us." I know it was last minute but that is just how my family tends to roll.
We ended up having three other families join us and we all had a blast! The Caswell, Lopez and Waite family sure added to the fun the children have at this park.
Tristan was mostly satisfied with playing in this water puddle.
Sariah and her good friend Daniel. Some may remember a post about this same time last year announcing that Sariah had received her first kiss......
This is as close as little man would get to the water. But he is playing in it, can't you tell?
A sure sign that it has been successful day..... this is what I saw as we were leaving... 
Thursday and Friday we recuperated and mom made up for lost time on all of her chores. We wanted to play some more and were planning on it, but Sariah had a runny nose and I knew my house would not survive any further neglect.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Happy First Birthday T.J.
O.K., so this is incredibly late but we finally got Tristan's birthday pictures done. The little man is actually a year old. It is so hard to believe.
He is an incredible blessing and such a happy, easy going guy. I love watching him grow up!
-He is incredibly fascinated by toilet paper and by putting things in the toilet.
- I swear he speaks. Tonight Matt called on the Garmin while the kids and I were coming home and asked if he should pick up one or two pizza's for dinner, Tristan immediately responded "Three"!!! It was so clear even daddy heard it and we all busted up laughing.
-He is still nursing although I am anxious for the day when he decides it is time to close the milk bar.
-He detests getting dressed or being changed as it involves restraining him from movement. He is constantly on the go, and with four older siblings he feels he has a lot of catching up to do.
Happy Birthday little man, we love you so very much!!!!
The picture session completely wore me out as he would not stay still for more than a nano second. I kept having to pick him up and move him back to "the red dot" and then she would catch a picture as he was moving. Such a pain, but an incredibly cute pain he is....
Friday, June 19, 2009
Summer begins!!!
What is a mom to do when there is a house to be cleaned, sandy laundry from a week at the beach to wash, phone calls to be made, children to teach, potluck dish to cook, fundraiser the next day to prepare for and a myriad of other things to be done? She forgets about it and goes off to play with her children!!! After all, the other things will be there waiting for her the next day, but there is no guarantee her children will be......
Auburn had their celebration of the last day of school today and we spent THE ENTIRE day there. So much fun, but now I am exhausted!
Unfortunately the beginning of the day it decided to rain. Hasn't rained in a month, so it rains today, of course!! Luckily Amco had these really cool ponchos they were handing out. It didn't deter the other children at all, in fact they reveled in it while the babies and I sought refuge under a tree.
The fire dept showed how to tear apart a vehicle
Lots of inflatable's, which always make for a great day !
Trying to dry out.
Oh, how I adore this face! Makes me smile every time I see his impish grin. He is such a happy baby!
This is what you get when you play too hard.
I live for moments like this. Big brother Isaac taking care of Sariah.
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
sequestered
A few months ago I was mentioning to a group of friends that I really wanted to be sequestered for a weekend. No one to be responsible for... That is when one of them offered to let me and another friend borrow her condo in Birch Bay.
We then spent the next six weeks looking forward to it.
Finally this past weekend we went and it was heaven!!!! Thank you so much Darcy!!!!
We got in late on Friday so it was off to a great burger place, then to the grocery store so we wouldn't spend all of our meals eating out.
Saturday I didn't rise until after 10:00, and I slept great I might add!! First time in a long time that I was not sharing a bed :) We got going around 2:30 and just drove and saw all the sights, stopped in a few stores, ran across some truly scary garage sales and headed back to the room. Spent the night swimming in the very warm pool, right up until they kicked us out.
Sunday we hit the pool and the hot tub, headed back to the room to pack and then checked in for five hours of pampering. There was a spa that was not actually open anymore but the old owner had talked the hew owner into opening it for a ladies day. There were probably about ten of us and we spent the whole time pampering ourselves and each other. All of the equipment and product was there, there just wasn't anyone who was doing the treatments for you.
We started with manicures (which was probably backwards but we know better for next time. Then spent time in the massaging chair doing each others pedicures. From there she went to sit in a jetted milk bath and I scrubbed down with a loofa, then rubbed in olive oil and then took a hot luxurious shower (by myself, without a baby I might add!). Then headed for the steam bath.
A light lunch was served and we spent time in the meditation room and then went to give each other facials. Another round in the steam bath and I was pretty much a goner. Loved it!!!!
Much thanks to my hubby for letting me go and for holding down the fort while I was gone, I knew I loved you!!!!
And funny how the thing I went to get away from, was the thing I then longed the most to see. This is what I cam home to.......
It is a pretty good life that I lead........
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