wow.............

Yes, those are two lines............... Matt and my mother had been bugging me for about a week that they thought I was pregnant which I viewed as not possible. Finally, they concluded that I must be pregnant because I had a sudden aversion to fried egg sandwiches. In an attempt to prove them wrong and stop them from teasing me I went to the $ store and bought a test. Boy, was I surprised!!! My first thought was, "Thank goodness human's have a gestation period of nine months, because that is how long it is going to take me to get used to the idea". According to my past history this should not be. I haven't had a period since I got pregnant with Sariah, I am still nursing and we haven't been that active if you know what I mean (I know too much information).

Matt is of course ecstatic and we have decided he glows instead of me.

The idea is growing on me, but........ I know lots of people have children fairly close together, but I have always been a three year age gap kind of person. I like it that way. I was planning on continuing the pattern if we did decide to have more. Now I think, Crud, Sariah is still nursing and it would be nice to have my breasts back for awhile. She wont be potty trained, so that means two in diapers and possibly a double stroller...... and this takes up the last seat in our van. Part of me is worried about Sariah too. I know it is probably needless, but I don't want to rush her into growing up just because there is another baby. I want her to still have all the joys and attention that come with being the baby of the family. Probably doesn't matter I suppose, she wont remember anyhow.

The children are ecstatic! Funny, they have never wanted to participate in naming the babies before, but when we told them they all said "we will have to name him Joseph". Then, yesterday I was running errands with Isaac and in all his four year old wisdom he said, "Now, when we get our baby boy, don't ask what to name him. He has decided he wants to be named Joseph". Hmmm.....that would work I suppose if I liked the name Joseph, but I really kind of don't.

Now, that I am getting used to the idea I am looking forward to certain things. I adore being pregnant and giving birth, so that's a plus. I love my midwife and relish our appointments that are an hour long. Since we are familiar with pregnancy the buisness part of the appt. never lasts that long and we just chat for the rest of the time. I am excited about having this one at home. Finally, I have always wanted a home birth and since my births are usually under two hours we are not chancing this one, I am staying right here!

I guesse when all is said and done, in spite of my fears and doubts, I know this is what the Lord has planned for us and I trust in that.