First doula baby

I decided that I wanted to pursue a career in midwifery. The first step for me was to start by doing doula work in order to improve my chances of being accepted to midwifery school in a year.
My first doula client had her child last sunday on the 13th of Sept.
Her beautiful baby girl was born at 9:04 am weighing 9 lbs 2 ounces and 21 inches long.
The experience was amazing
On that note, Sariah moved the entire night. It was as if she was aware that something was going on. When I got home the next morning and went to bed Matt climbed in behind me and made the usual motion of putting his hand on my belly. He was astonished at how active she was.
One of the nurses made a comment about how this must make me want to hold my own child now. Actually it is the opposite. Once the child is here there is a period of wonderment and awe, but then life returns to normal and the experience is over. I am really not ready for that. The apprehension and wonder and "what if's" are gone. You no longer go to sleep wondering if "tonight will be the night" but rather you don't go to sleep at all :) It is a joyful and yet sad passing. What now belongs only to me I will soon have to share with the whole world.